Today, I am irritable.

I used to start off each morning with 2 cappuccinos – made in my little Krups cappuccino machine with freshly ground organic fair trade coffee and raw milk. I never got coffee jitters or coffee stomach ache and was quite happy with that little ritual.

This morning, and this is something I have been noticing building for a few days, one cup – made with almond milk- gave me jitters. I didn’t have two.

I seem to be becoming more sensitive. As if I wasn’t already sensitive enough!!

I’m drinking another green smoothie, somewhat truculently. Whose stupid idea was this diet, anyway?

Eggs, bacon, cheese, coffee!!  I want you!

I would plow into a plate of Eggs Benny at the Stonegrill restaurant with great gusto at the moment. And, why, yes, you can top off my coffee, thank you very much.

No doubt it would make me sick at this point though. So I will sip at my green drink and think about what to make for lunch….

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I never did figure out what I was going to make for lunch and as it turned out, I didn’t have to! My 11:30 client delivered lunch to me – spicy red lentils. She even included some chopped up cilantro on the side, some lime wedges, and a little paper bowl and spoon. How incredibly sweet of her! And they are super yummy. I am not irritable any more 🙂

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So – dinner. I didn’t eat dinner last night. I  made beef stew for my family, in the crock pot. “Are you going to eat some stew?” asked my 12 year old son. “No honey, I’m not eating meat at the moment, remember?”. “But Mom, you make the best beef stew in the whole world!! What are you going to eat??”.

I’m not sure whether it was genuine exhaustion or detox or just overwhelm from having to think so hard about food (or repressed depression about not being able to eat stew), but I actually went to bed at 6:30 last night. Slept right through. So at least I didn’t have to worry about what I was going to have for dinner.

Tonight, I made the boys steak and cheese subs. You wouldn’t think that is very special, but my steak and cheese subs are practically famous. I even made them for a dinner party one night, with chocolate chip cookies for dessert, and everyone was like, Wow, steak and cheese subs, like, who knew?

I don’t ever eat the subs- puffy white buns haven’t ever done it for me – but I usually take the  meat and the onions and the mushrooms and mix it up with some goat cheese and throw it in some kind of wrap.

Well, not doing that this evening. I put some hummus on an ezekial tortilla – which I intended to unfreeze into softness and wrap with some veggies and greens as well. But I managed to overheat it in the toaster oven and it came out just sort of stale and stiff. So I broke it into a few pieces, put some hummus and  sauteed mushrooms and onions on the pieces and ate that. Uninspired and not really sitting very well. Dinner FAIL. Oh well, at least the boys were happy.